A Flimsy Clumsy

I thought we had talked about this? When we talked about how our mind works About what is wrong with you And about what is wrong with me You promise to be better I thought we had used this way before? When we talked about how to solve our conflicts About what suit you the most And what suit me the most You promise to use it better I thought we had did this way before? When we chose our value About what is best for you And about what is best for me You promise to do better And all this... I thought you listened to me I thought you understood me I thought you loved me?

I wanna be touched, be loved I wanna heal, be hugged It's just the two of us I'm tired of having to fight all the time. I'm tired of having to deal with all this while you pretend that you care. For a minute, just please tell me the truth, just hug me and tell me things will be fine. Or that's what we swore And if I've lost my charm Apologies due, no harm 'Cause you've got ahold of my heart And I know it's worn And you know that I'll settle for less and you know once again I'll be lied to. And you know how much you meant for me. And you know that I won't ever leave. So won't you please spare me indignity And won't you please give me some decency And won't you please call it if our time is through Cause I know that we fall apart when nothing's new Nothing's new We both know you'll lie to get me back. And we both know that it would take you through half a moon until you stop. And we both know that once again I will cry a...

We've hurt ourselves for far too much.  We've yelled and got angry and done so much. Now, it feels like we have been so out of touch. Those that matter to you, mocked me. Values that give you meaning, belittled me. Now, it feels like we happened because of me. I need you to give your 101% like I used to. I need you to forgive every little unbelievable thing I do like I used to. Now, would you sacrifice "you" for us, like I used to? You deconstruct and you construct "me" until  I look in the mirror and scream because I no longer see the "me" that I used to ever love. I want you to feel what I feel so that you would know how lonely I used to be when you cut me off from those that I hold dear.